m back :)

hi readers .. m back :)
it been so long i never update my blog ..

ntg much to say tis time..

just feeling of guiltiness and sadness appear in my heart ...

i feel very stressfull.. m nt happy and worry that u dont know take care yourself ..i duno hw would u be next time wen m nt around with you.. eventhough i noe that u are trying to chg already ...but wen i control you too much .. i felt guilty and bad .. feel like m so bad .. even food oso want to controll.. aikss.. duno how la now.. just streesful and unhappy this few days  :( ...

mayb i should just let go.. no string attached ..if that would let u happy and gets freedom..

tears day ...

m back reader .. :)
so long i didnt update my blog..
today ..sad day for me ..
some thing just happened...


to her :
m sorry for everyting okay?
seriously .. m sincere for it ..i got heart for it ..
just that i got no chance for it =(...
i did tried my best and did a lot things just to let u happy..
i did n tried my best ...u knew it right =(
unfortunately ...i failed ..
i gues i failed or mayb i am .. =(
i didnt make it as what u want ..
tats y everytime i told u that i treated u not good enuf ..
thanks to the blog...
because through  the blog , only i noe how bad am i ..
i treated u not good enuf..
i didnt fulfill all what you wants ..
i didnt do what u expected..
i failed ....i apologise..
m sorry .. i tot i treated u good enuf already ..
till i see that blog only i noe how bad am i to u .. =(
m sorry *sobs*...
mayb what ur mum said is correct ..  *sighs* =(

happy ...

today my unhappy mood fade away lurrr !! heeeee .. happy happy ..

my dear chg for mee =P happy ! HAHAHA 

hopefully she can maintain like tiss :)) 

yesterday was feeling sad n dont feel lik sms-ing with anyone ..

but today m okay alreadyy :) but i still have to apologise to my beloved dear ..

dearrr .. m soo sorry to neglected u yesterdayy :(

i just cant control my feeling yesterdayy .. :((

sorryy ... hope u wont angry o sad .. :(

feel guilty noww .. :( 

i love u dearr .. feel like hugging u .. can i ? hehehe =P

waiting for the day to comes :) muwax! 

  

Ling Love Lean 4ever :))

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valentine's day

yesterday was valentine ... an unhappy valentine's day ...
as normal days .. i back from sch .. n waited for her to come back at  6.45 pm..
i tot of telling her a lot of tings .. i was so happy n the 1st person tat i wana share together is with her ..
but after she back from school , she was totally emo .. n i dont know y ..
tat time my happiness was totally fading away ..
i wanted to tell my happy tings ,bt since she is not happy , so i didnt tell any about my stuff..
kip on persuading her .. i will take this responsibility to take care her 4ever..
i wont be tired of taking care of her as i promised :)
she told me her problem ... n i gave her some advise :)
hopefully she can understand n realise bout it ..
if an unhappy day for me could chg her ,  i rather it to be an unhappy day ..
as long as she can ..
 i noe u cann :))
till today my mood is still the same .. unhappy . no mood to do anytingg ..
nvm .. is okay :) i bear with it ..
i love u dear.. =(( *sobs*

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FINALLY !

finally ! hahaha .. was so happy ! :) 12/2/2010  , 10.23 am in the morning .. i finished my SO CALLED HOMEWORK  .. hahaha 99 pages is done , decoration , picture everyting done ! wuhoo ! mamamiahh ! =P
hopefully my teacher will love it :)) hehehe .. is quite hard for me to finish it actually ..bcuz m a guy which duno any tings of art .. but i kip on asking frens n learn n learn n learn . finally i knew hw to do . n Amazingly , i actually did it for 99 pages ! hehe n my decoration sucks i gues .. but still i think for about 3 days for it .. hahaha .. is hard for a guy like me to do it .. but i think is worth it ... as long as teacher love it can already :) so totally i finished my overall homework is about 21 days :)) actually dun nid 21 days .. just tat m too busy for my homeworks n tuition .. n study too .. so m lack of time .. i can just finished it for about 1 week if i dun HAVE ANY HOMEWORKS or TUITIONS or STUDY  ... but my time was justt too packed >< .. n of course the homework nw is like precious .. bcuz i spent my sleep time to do it .. spent my homework time to do it .. :)) really hope tat teacher will love me :)


recently at night quite busy .. got homeworks n study summore .. aikss..
feel guilty .. dun have much time to accompany my gf .. but wen i free , 1st ting i will think of sms-ing her ..
hehe .. so now i trying to rearrange my time .. so tat i will have enuf time to accompany herrr :)
just love her so much .. dont hope tat one day tat is without her .. is suffer :(
tats all i think for noww :)   I love SHOPOR ! :) <3

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phew... finally ! hehee .. my hard works pay off :).. i myself dun even noe anyting bout the HOMEWORKS .. haha learn n learn n learn from my friend :).. n finally i get to do it 99 pages ! thank you wei jian ! hehe :) damn happy :) hehe a guy who dun even noe how to make those decoration stuff n the 99 pages of homework, did quite well . hahaha quite satisfy with it .. haha but still have to see whether my teacher will lik it o nt .. :) hopefully she will love it :)  and still got sumting have to add into my homeworks to make it nicer .. hehe getting the stuff soon :)

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finally ! 24th of January ! hehee .. quite happy ! :P
bcuz i had finished the 99 pages of my SO CALL HOMEWORKS .. LOL :)
but there is still decorating need to be done >< .. hopefully can finish it asap..
finish it is quite a difficult ting .. bcuz i dun have much time to do it..
i got tuitions, tuition hwks, school n school homework , help my parents , study ! >< haihh
dun have much time to do the 99 pages hwk .. but i spent my sleep time to do itt.. hehe
almost everyday spent a bit time to do it .. but dun have much time..
until the got 5 days i slept at 4 am to do tat hwk ! >< hahaha
until now i got dehydrate .. :( pimples all over my face .. n the worst is a pimple on my eyelid !!! arghh ! hate itt ... painn :(
no doubt .. have to hand in b4 14.2.2011 :(
n thank God i have finish the 99 pages .. but decoration havent :(
i must work hard lu ! must rearrange my time :) wish me luck guys ! :)
n lastly a big thanks to my dear :) she accompanied me until late night ..
i asked to sleep early .. but she dun want >,< she spent her slep time to  accompanied me..
just love her so much :) <3

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